I want to melt into my skin whenever I hear about her
Melting into oblivion
Sifting through the cracks in the pavement
Mixing into my vomit
It feels good to intoxicate and empty
But I regret telling him my feelings
I don’t know him well enough to know if he deserves my secret
I don’t know me well enough to know if I deserve him.
Sifting through the cracks
It always sifts through the cracks
And manages to escape when I lose control
She’s making it difficult to keep a hold
To keep the cracks fastened shut with bolts and locks of my own creation
Unintentionally of course
And there are no hard feelings
Only those towards the monster eating her up inside
Insatiably destroying her body and inhabiting it.
Sifting through the cracks and into the waste of my fellow species
Flowing along with all the other badness
And into the raging sea
Across the oceans which divide her and I
Through the taps in the ICU
And into her bed.
I want to hold her.
To tell her I love her.
To tell her the things I never have
Before the monster takes over completely
And she is dumped as well.